I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Since I first became aware of the grand and awe-inspiring existence of God, I have loved reading many amazing spiritual operates such as the Bible (my beloved parts are the Sermon on the Support and Psalms), the Bhagavad-Gita, the Upanishads, the Koran and the poetry of Kabir and Rumi. None of them come near the wonder of a Course in Miracles. Studying it with an open mind and center, your doubts and issues clean away. You feel aware of a great enjoy deep within you – deeper than what you realized before. The near future begins to look therefore bright for you and your loved ones. You’re feeling passion for everyone including those you formerly have tried to keep excluded. These experiences are very effective and sometimes toss you off stability only a little, but it is worth every penny: A Program in Miracles presents one to a love therefore calm, so solid and so general – you’ll question how so most of the world’s religions, whose goal is supposedly an identical knowledge, got therefore down track.
I wish to state here to any Christian who thinks that his church’s teachings don’t really satisfy his thirst to understand a type, merciful and supportive God, but is relatively scared to learn the Class due to others’ claims that it is irregular with “true” Christianity: Don’t fear! I’ve read the gospels many times and I assure you a Class in Wonders is totally in keeping with Jesus’ teachings while he was on earth. Don’t concern the fanatical defenders of exclusionist dogma – these bad people think themselves to be the sole companies of Jesus’ message, and the only real people worthy of his benefits, while all the should go to hell. A Class in Miracles reflects Jesus’ true concept: unconditional passion for *all people*. While he was on earth, Jesus believed to judge a pine by its fruit. So give it a try and see how the fruits that ripen in your lifetime taste. When they style bad, you can reject A Class in Miracles. But when they taste as special as quarry do, and the countless different correct seekers who have found A Course in Miracles to be nothing less than the usual beautiful value, then congratulations – and may your heart continually be abundantly filled up with peaceful, loving joy.